59 to 60 part 40

 

                                                                              20/12/21

Hello and welcome to part forty and Christmas week, was up early again so went for a walk and got some fresh bread and some cold meat, it is still grey and mist is coming down again, while making breakfast I took there orange juice out of the fridge door and the whole shelf came with it mm and hit the floor bursting a 4pint milk carton whoop great start to the day, I managed to save some in bottle so after a quick clean up it was breakfast and then a longer clean up as I don't want the kitchen to smell of sour milk so I decided to give the whole kitchen its festive clean which took well over an hour. Hard day today as Helen my gorgeous wife wants to sort out money and then go to a funeral directors to discuss a cremation I can only imagine what its like inside Helen's head at the moment as I know my head is going a bit crazy with thought. My brother and sister in law have sent her flowers delivered to the house which was really nice.

It is a strange feeling we want to enjoy this Christmas as we always do but I want to make it so much more special but it is hard as all I think about is Helen and keeping her as safe as possible whilst trying to keep things happy as I can, I know that sounds daft and even tomorrow we have a big day I am not sure how to react I sit alone at times and just feel completely out of it and completely out of control of the whole situation, the last two days I could feel some anger in me and it was coming out all in swear words and kicking things and then sitting down with tears poring down my face all this while trying to keep things festive. I just have to try and stay strong for her and do as much as I can for my wife Helen.

Bottom photo is of our first dance the tune, I wanna know what love is she was absolutely stunning that day and I know I have probably already done this but it was one of the happiest days of my life period. So on we go just waiting for Helen see what time she wants to go out at. I hope all that read this have a happy festive week the big build up to Christmas.

Been a very hard day well afternoon Helen been phoning around places asking about cremations and few other things, then we were out and had to go to bank to transfer money into her other account to give to her sister and her niece, all i can say is i was close to tears in that bank but managed to wait until we got home, i know this must have been so difficult to do for Helen but she is just so strong and such a great human who really does not deserve any of this. I finish here for today as it just seems right.

                                                                         21/12/21

Good morning an early start on a day which io have not been looking forward to have been awake since before seven just could not get back to sleep no matter how hard i tried, so will make Helen’s breakfast soon and shower and well it will be out to Helen’s appointment and all i can think is i hope she gets this drug i know we are uncertain how long but she deserves every chance that is out their so 1-30 is the time we see them all at. I have come to my man cave for just a wee while just to do this blog and have ask my lights on and it is very nice and i hope i can get Helen to come out some time just to see how it looks but it is a big step to get in to it, this is something i will have to sort but will probably wait now until spring.

                                                           Myself and Helen at Lochness

Well it was not to bad and although her blood results are not back as yet if they are ok then she can have this new drug which will give us a bit more time together, and as I have said already I don't care if it was only one day it is one more day together mmm but here is hoping it is a lot more than that. He has cut her steroids back and we shall see what effect that has on Helen as her dizzy spells are not much better and he also said she should not drive any more and although this must have been hard to take I think Helen was expecting it and of course she has her own chauffeur and she knows wherever she wants to go I shall take her. We are back home and after doing a bit of shopping and after a cup of latte at costa we are now home and we have had an early tea and are just about to have a bit of chill as it has been a long day oh and Helen is looking forward to pigs in blankets soon as she keeps saying pigsnblankets so I don't forget lol I love this women. 

                                                                         22/12/21

Hello and welcome to Wednesday blog and after what has been a night of Helen having the munchies and managing a wee glass of fizz we woken early so Helen can do a bit of wrapping and I can go out for a while after breakfast and pick up a couple of things one for Helen which I can’t mention as yet just in case she reads this but i shall on Christmas Eve. We are having lunch in the house today then I think Helen wants to go out for an hour to pick a couple of things. It has been a busy morning for her as she has been wrapping presents and the phone has not stopped. She was in a very Christmassy mood last night so we watched a couple of festive programs on tv while she ate her way through the fridge ha ha, well all i can say it is very good to see and even though it was a small glass of fizz it was nice just to sit and enjoy the evening. I am in the cave at the moment doing this blog and sorting out w ell I’m no saying yet shhhhh. 

A snowy scene just as it is nearly Christmas 🎅 one of my own and I have probably posted this one before, I am getting to the stage of forgetting what photos I have posted. Well back into Helen and a warm cup of something and a bite to eat. Well we have been and done a few things and now back home it is cold and rainy but they do say it may snow and may snow in certain places t give a white Christmas mmm i hope it does here as that would just be so magical for us both. I have left Helen in the house wrapping gifts so giving her a little space, I want to spend as much time with her but she is probably glad of a bit of space for a while and she knows I am not far away. It will be an early tea tonight as well so we can have a chilled night and possibly 40 winks as well, so as for todays blog well that’s it for now.

                                                                     23/12/21

Hello and it has been a very busy day, i took Helen to see her solicitor which took a while and the we were off to visit her niece in Forfar, the traffic trying to get out of Dundee was awful it took just over an hour to get to the Forfar road, it was nice seeing them both today and i have a bit to right but it may have to be included in tomorrow’s blog as we are just home and about to have tea so this shall just be a shorter blog than usual. It has been raining most of the day and it is still cold 🥶 but we did get a few things done. So sorry for the shortness of this one today i shall hopefully make up for it tomorrow mmm yes Christmas Eve ho ho ho 🎅 

                                                                         24/12/21

Hello and welcome Christmas Eve and as is it watching it's a wonderful life supping a cider all I can say that it has been a very hectic day, last night as Helen was getting ready for bed her filling in her tooth fell out so it was another job for today which was fine as we had everything done for 12-30 and back home where we enjoyed a coffee tower and a cup of tea, then it was onto preparing things for tomorrow oh boy that took a while, Helen had her own stuff to sort out as well so I think we are both mainly there now all soup cooked roast beef cooked tatties peeled and Brussels done as well so I hope we both can have a very quiet Christmas Eve night we shall see, todays tea will be made up of snacks and a few wee fizzes mm perfect. Helen had a hard day yesterday as we were up seeing her niece, she asked her niece if she would like her car and the both of them were blown away with the offer and also she told them about some money that was going to be transferred into their accounts, I think young Helen her niece really did not understand the gravity of all that is going on. But that is it done for that side and I was so wanting this day to be a nice quiet one especially for Helen but well as I say it will be a nice evening.

some snowy photos seeing it is Christmas, I have bought myself an instant camera so as I can get some happy memories of myself and Helen. I still have not found my wedding ring which really is getting me down I have moved stuff around the house in the hope it was lying some place but still no luck. Helen is convinced it will turn up and I hope that she is right. Well I shall hopefully be able to come on tomorrow and put in a bit about our Christmas Day all I want is for Helen to enjoy and for us both to have a great day. So just in case I would like to wish you all a very merry Christmas.

                                                                                     

                                                                                   25/12/21

Merry Christmas to you all, was a quiet night last night and for the first time in years we were in bed before Christmas as Helen was feeling really tiered but we did stay awake to see it in and did manage to open a couple of presents. It was a busy day and can't blame Helen for feeling so sleepy but hope today it will be a bit different as we intend on doing very little mmm well apart from having Christmas dinner but we are normally finished early and then we are like two big sleepy things for an hour. Lovely presents from Helen new boots, whisky, new slippers only the best ones though and socks as well. And I think Helen liked some of her presents ha ha I'm am rubbish at trying to buy her presents and most of them that were bought were before we had the awful news. I have had a bit of a melt down sitting here on my own Helen telling me to stay strong my god that women has so much strength and dignity. But I shall stay strong today as I want Helen to enjoy this as much as possible.

a photo from a few years ago at work in Perth think it was Christmas Eve, I was meant to be working this year as well but due ti circumstances I am off and truthfully domino know when I shall be back at work. So back to to today and I have a few thing to do before the meal, I shall try and get back on later but failing that I shall be back Boxing Day. Well what a great day we have had together we have both tried to forget all that is going on and just have a really Christmas to remember, here is photo of my beautiful wife.

A great day had by us both and now to be followed by a really lovely Christmas night having few drinks and watching rubbish on tv. Merry Christmas all. 

                                                                                 26/12/21

Hello and welcome Boxing Day was up until midnight last night just to see out Christmas Day and see in Boxing Day, Helen felt beat so retired to bed to read her book and to take things easy which was fine, a cup of tea and slice of toast revived her a bit and she was still awake when I got through so we still saw out the day together. 

So today shall be a bit of the same but we shall have tea a wee bit later oh and there is also football on today my team take on Hibs but due to new covid rules as it’s on the rise again only 500 fans will be aloud in mmm kind of glad of that as it is a lousy day outside rain and very cold. So here we go am in cave for while as Helen has a wee sleep 😴 soup around 1pm then take things from their. 

Weather does not seem to be improving it has been grey for so long now i forget what the blue sky looks like been so wanting more frosty mornings but not much at all this year which is a pity but saying that it did not get the snow and ice until January which is only a week away. Well we come to the end of this blog we have had a nice couple of days and today well even though my team got beat it’s been great having Boxing Day together and a nice meal. She is a real gem and the future is uncertain at the moment we are trying to live in the here and now. So until part 41 I hope the Christmas period has been good for you all. Take care and BYEEEEE

Ged

59 to 60 part 39

 

                                                                          13/12/21

Hello and welcome to this weeks blog and how this one will shape up well at the moment I am unsure, I have been out to do bit of cleaning to the outside of the house and couple of other small jobs just to keep my brain occupied while Helen rests, we were both awake early me because I had to phone my doctor and I think Helen heard me so she was up and we both had an early breakfast, Helen is now in the shower and were going to have a light lunch before we go out and me I am currently waiting for the doctor to phone me back, we just as I was putting this down the doctor has phoned and agreed that as far as my work is concerned we shall play it month by month and she was very nice and concerned for us both and if I have any issues I have to phone back and she will see me which is very helpful. I feel so weary and I think mainly it has been due to telling family members but they have been good and have mentioned it to friends as well. So I am meant to be at a Christmas thing next week but due to covid and all that has gone on I am not sure if it will go ahead, Helen is ok if I go as it is just a few minutes from the house so will have to phone them and see what the situation is. Saturday at the moment is still on but will have to keep an eye on things as week goes. Out for a while drive around the country side just so we could get some air and away from the house.

It is now time to make tea for us both so I will leave todays blog here for now and I hope you like the photos.

                                                                            14/12/21

Good morning i had not a bad nights sleep but was still up early and it is a strange feeling as when you first wake up well when i first wake up my mind is blank to what is going on and then boom it just all comes back, i also thought i would have more dreams but truthfully i can’t remember having any dreams this week at all. So we are going to have lunch soon and then go out again for  a while where i am not very sure we shall see. I have been cleaning the back room and have now come outside first to try and sort the door of the tumble drier as the glass unit fell of have put it back on but it is a hit or a miss if it works so i think we need a new one well this one is over 25years old. I am now having a bit of time in my man cave burning some smelly stuff and just trying to relax my brain, Helen slept well and is feeling much the same which is good and hopefully it continues and she gets this drug and we just have to take it from their as we just don't know much more. So onto the rest of the day and see what it brings. 

Looks like things will go ahead on Saturday but be really cautious and aware of the new covid rules my brother centre of the picture and mate will be in attendance as well, I am not far away as I have already said just a few minutes up the road. The nurses came to see Helen today and have given her their number to phone anytime she needs something or if she begins to feel not right  so things seem to be in place for any eventuality. Just back from looking for a new computer table as I need one for my man cave as the drawer fell out of the the one I have and I just can't get it back together. Back in the house now and it will be another quiet night but I may have a wee glass of something. 

                                                                         15/12/21

Hello and welcome Wednesday had another settled night as did Helen i was up and breakfast and to take my mind of all that is going on i went for a 10mile cycle which was good and i hope to do the same tomorrow, i am staying very close to the house just in case Helen needs me i am only a shout away. I have come out and started to clean the back of the house the eves and windows as they were looking very shabby and truthfully it was not a hard job. Helen is cleaning the bathroom as she feels she needs to do something and feels that she may like a house day today but may also want to nip into the ferry to get some Christmas cards so i will just go with what she would like to do. I have decided to give up on the bureau as i cant get the drawer sorted so i have bought another one which looks good and also comes with a book shelves so hopefully get that over the weekend. So time for soup and a bit sand which with Helen and see what happens after this. Had a bit of time in the cave wrapped a few presents and then blew up tyres on bike I’m taken for 10miles tomorrow. We have had tea and are settled Helen wanted bit of time on her own so I stayed out for a while. 

From a couple of years ago was out walking n a really frosty early morning as you can see. Well that will be it for today as we are still both mentally drained. 

                                                                       16/12/21

today started again with a 10mile bike ride after breakfast which did kind of help me today not that I forgot anything it was just nice to get some fresh air, it is still Gray and looks like it might rain. Specialist nurse phoned this morning to ask how Helen was and if things were the same? Told her that she was ok and all readings were fine and she was happy to here this news. We are trying to be as normal as possible until Tuesday as well what else can we do. Helen having another half hour then shower right her cards out then into the ferry for a while and post said cards. 

Photo from last year when we were hit with snow this is ninewells gardens a bed of snow sometimes working there it does feel as cold as this lol. Back home after visit to shops and post some Christmas cards went back down to farm shop to get some Stornaway sausages and milk. Back home now and needing 30min shut eye before tea. So for today this will be it another chill night. 

                                                                     17/12/21

Hello and happy Friday to you, it has been a very busy start to the day as I had to go up to work and hand in my line and let them know how things are and as always they were really helpful. I saw Nicola but not Leighann as she was sick this morning I hope she is ok, got a hug from Nic and was just nice to see her as they have both been great so I dropped of some we xmas presses for them. I then had to go and pick up a unit for my man shed bloody hell he stayed on the top floor so by time we got it down I was fooked and the discovered the book shelves part would not fir in car so I had to try and take it apart with a bloody knife unscrewing the screws and ended up breaking a part off AAAAAAAAAAARGH but hey got it in the car. I then had to nip into the Ferry to drop a wee bear of to get its arm stitched back on, we have had him a while but his arm fell off a while a go so I am getting it sorted and on Christmas Eve am going to give him back to Helen. so I am now back home and time for a cup of soup and toast and then out again.

Oh how she is growing and she is so much like her mum my niece Debbies daughter Kendal ready for another Christmas party really beautiful. Well back home after visit to helens dads grave to put some christmassy stuff and a stop for a cup of tea and tonight I may have a couple of drams just as its Friday and near Christmas. Helen is ok uneasy on her feet but she managed today and just good getting out away from the four walls of the house and I am always ready to take her where ever she wants to go.

I am finding it hard at the moment to put a lot on but am trying, this was from a walk from 2010 when we were hit with some really cold weather and lots of snow it is from the Hermitage near Dunkeld it is a lovey walk and to see the falls is really great and it was this time as it was all frozen and it was just a fantastic day and walk I could have stayed there all day and it was just one of these most wonderful ice cold fresh days just great to clear the head. I have been back in summer and its just as good and well worth a visit. So tonight I shall have hopefully a nice night with Helen who amazes me all the time as she is currently sorting her will out and doing it with so much calmness, she told me this morning and I just could not help but greet. Well it looks to be a frosty night as it is very clear and a full moon so I can see me heading out a couple of times as the night goes on.

18/12/21

Hello and good morning not best night sleep was awake around 7am so was up to read book then around 8  went to see and lay a Christmas foliage at mums and cut part of a tree down and yes spoke to mum and asked her to keep an eye on us both, i am not religious but well i just hope that in some way mum can here me and yes i so wish she was here now so i can talk to her i know she can only do so much but i know it would help so yes i asked her please if you do here me keep us safe and give us the strength to get through what ever lays ahead. After mums i went to into the ferry to get rolls and Helen’s paper and her lucky dip for tonight and if anyone deserves a big chunk of luck it is Helen. Back up the road and Stornaway black pudding sausages for breakfast which were really nice, after making sure Helen was in i am now outside sorting the computer table and book shelves i bought have given the top i of it a paint after sanding it down as it was a bit marked. I will have to move stuff around to get it in but hopefully it will fit ok as i do like the look of it.

So it is not a great day very misty and grey and i was hoping it be frosty as when we went to bed last night it was white with frost and looked and felt really nice but no was all gone this morning. We are meant to be going to Arbroath but i am not sure Helen will want to go while it is like this we shall wait and see. So we ended up in Arbroath it was very thick fog but cleared for a while. Did the shop thing then to put some Christmas plants down for her. We then headed to the cliffs where the mist had cleared for a while and was lovely view.

So as you can see it does look nice but believe me when I say by the time we got back on the road top Dundee you could not see your hand in front of your face i have not seen it so thick in a long time and it is freezing fog as well. So back home and just finishing a few things outside and then will go in and have tea with Helen and she is considering having a glass of fizz tonight. Well that’s todays blog tried to put bit more on but it is hard at the moment. 

                                                                              20/12/21

Welcome Sunday and it has been busy as i have now put the computer table and the shelves in the man cave and yes it takes up a bit room but i do like it as it gives me more options and hopefully will make more space as time goes on. And as you can see i now have plenty of room for my cd’s which in itself has created space and it is much easier to do my blog as well when i am out here so that’s good so was worth it.

 

So this morning it was a bacon roll for our breakfast Helen never had fizz last night so had to drink it all myself  she was in the mood but as the day went on she just did not want any. She is doping well at moment but god it is hard to watch the woman i love have to go through this. I am on my way in and go to the shop as she fancies sweet sour chicken for tea but says for lunch she might like bran so i am off to the shop now. Well was a quick trip to the shop and had a walk as well, I am now back home and decided to have a shower and just put my pjs on and have a mm silent night, well a week before Christmas why not.

Well to finish this photo was taken few years ago beside queens view we had a laugh with Santa  and his elf who we were convinced had a few fizzy pops ha ha but they were great and really went for it especially with kids oh and big kids and yes it snowed and they had fires going mulled wine and chestnuts it was braw and it was nice to see Helen so happy as well. So as for this weeks blog it will end here and I thank you all for reading and well next week is a big week for us both and we just don't know what to expect. Thank you all.

Ged

59 to 60 part 38

 

Hello and welcome to this weeks blog, not the start I had hoped for as it is dull raining and just pretty much a yeeuch kind of day. My hope was to start on the bike and get a few miles in but at the moment that is not going to happen and it looks like tomorrow is out as well as we are due snow hail rain wind ha ha yup I love Scotland. So after breakfast I am heading to the man cave to wrap up Helens presents and then may go to the tip and I have a few things to do around the house, I may go down to Inverarity to the farm shop for some eggs and few other things. So lets see what this day brings shall we? Well some of Helens presents wrapped and it was good to do it in the mancave as it gave me bit room and was a bit more successful wrapping them all that is left is a few wee stocking fillers to get and some presents for the girls at work. Time to have a cup of tea and then if we don't go out go for a wee walk as the weather has cleared a bit but I have decided to wait until Thursday to go for a walk. Had a quick visit to the shops to get a few things but not much else today apart from varnishing a table, so not much else to say about today really mmm prepare for the next storm which arrives tomorrow but hopefully not as strong as the other week.

                                                                         My new toy 

                                                                          

                                                                            07/12/21

Tuesday morning and was woken up by someone calling the house at 7-15 bloody swines, so I lay for a while and knew that I was not going to get back to sleep again so decided to get up and go for a walk as yes you guessed it frosty lovely cold morning that is so refreshing and I also took my camera but was just a bit to late for sunrise, in saying that it was cloudy as we are of course expecting storm Barra which is set to bring snow rain and high winds. Helen has her appointment today at 2-30pm and as always  she is very nervous but we are hoping all is ok but we really need to get on top of her breathing as once again it is getting her down. So breakfast time and will edit the photos and put some on here.

Some from early this morning, was nice wee early walk and as I say very refreshing way to start the day. So until we leave for the hospital its another coat of varnish on the table and probably a clean of the house mmm rocknroll life style me lol.

Hi feeling bit low as Helen has been taken into hospital it was not good news, her treatment has stopped working, she has been really struggling last few weeks and as soon as the consultant saw her bp he said that he could not let her go home until they sorted this, she has to get a brain scan as she has had dizzy spells and some headaches she has also to get a ct scan and was given an X-ray today, she is going to be put forward for clinical trial but they need to get her a bit healthier first so am all crossed as in fingers and the likes. Hard to watch her go through all this and she said something before I left which made me worry well I've always  been worried but she said that she thinks she is near the pointy end of the stick! I told her that we will fight and stay positive as she always has been. My wife is a really strong person she is my best friend and to see her like this is just heart breaking and you just feel useless. So we shall see what happens tomorrow but for now I'm just needing a good greet. 

                                                                           08/12/21

Well have heard from Helen but not much to say as she still has not had her scans so its still a waiting game, i am not aloud to go and see her until 4pm due to Covid restrictions they still have an appointment system in place which i suppose is fair enough but i wish i could have visited this morning. As for last night well was not easy and i decided for some reason to sleep on the couch 🛋 and i did fall asleep after a good greet again, then at 7-15 i woke up and decided to go to bed and read a bit of my book and i fell asleep again for 40min or so. I got up and had my breakfast in the man shed which was fine. To keep my mind of things i decided to do a bit of cleaning and put fence back up which blew down in storm barra again. So at the moment I’m having a wee break put a bit of vinyl on and soon as it started they started cutting all the trees up which have fallen down so can hardly here anything at moment. I have just heard from Helen and she has had all her scans so that’s good and results wont be back until later so hopefully when i get there. 

Not long back from Hospital Helen is ok still breathing a bit when off the oxygen but we are seeing the consultant and specialist nurse tomorrow at 10am to discuss the next step so we hope to get some new about this clinical trial and of course all is ok with the scans that she had today, nervous though and I am sure Helen is as well but all crossed for tomorrow. As for myself well it was a trip to the shops to get something for my tea and am now back home sitting on my own watching a movie to keep my mind occupied.

This is a wee picture from a few years ago up at Bridgefoot another one of these days where I could have stayed out all day and night taking photos it was so peaceful and just such a nice snowy day. Well it has been a difficult day so I will leave it here and hopefully be back with some more news tomorrow, lets hope it is good.

                                                                               9/12/21

Well today has been really hard as we got some bad news that my gorgeous wife's cancer has spread to her brain, Helen is the love of my life my hero my best friend and I am struggling with this, she is going to come home hopefully soon with oxygen and on the 21st we have to go back and see the consultant and if she is ok they are going to give her another drug which will help and it will give her more time, although the consultant said so many months the specialist nurse came back in and said it could extend to a lot of months into the future, as I write this I am in tears and my head is all over the place but I feel carrying on with this blog may help me to cope, I am now in serious Helen mode and am going to do everything it takes to get her through this, she has made me the man I am today she has pushed me to do things I could only dream of doing I have seen places I never thought I would get to all because Helen has been behind me every step of the way so I will make sure no matter what is said I will take care of her and hope that all goes well. I am going back to the hospital  soon to see her and I hope she gets home tomorrow.

                                                                    the love of my life

So back home after seeing Helen and she still has not seen the oxygen people so she may be in the whole wknd we are hoping not and they come tomorrow so she can get home as she just wants back in the house in her own surroundings so she can process all that has gone on. Me well just been busy answering phone calls and messages. So not great day I keep everything cross I can get Helen home tomorrow.

                                                                                  10/12/21

Good morning and well a sleepless night for me as i just could not stop thinking of Helen, i think i kept dozing off but was not for long so tried reading my book which did help but not with the sleep, i have been out in garden since 7am putting up lights and doing a bit of tidying up to keep my mind occupied, i am now locked in my man cave writing this blog. Helen sent a msg and i think she has been much the same but it was good to get a msg. I have cried so much but i am trying just to stay strong and get Helen home where i know she will feel better and hoping fitter for this drug, i am going up around two in the hope that her oxygen has been sorted as she wont get out, but if she does i think we shall be in kip zzzzzzzz for a good few hours.

Well bit of positive news as Helen got home and at this time she does not need oxygen home with her as her levels were ok, we are now home and Helen is sleeping as she is so tired and i am not surprised as the ward was really busy. I will keep an eye on things and specialist nurses will come to the house as well to keep an eye on things as well and if she stays well until the 21st then we see the consultant and hope she gets this chemo drug. I will leave it their for today as i am beat. 

                                                                       11/12/21

Hi and after  a good night sleep we have both woken up feeling ok, breakfast done and then we had a chat about who Helen should speak to first and it will be her sister first this afternoon and then she will se her niece tomorrow, I have told her just take it easy don't get into a panic about who to speak to as we know a few things but we still don't know what will happen next Tuesday the 21st, it will be upsetting talking to them but she will manage as she is a strong individual. She has asked if I can go out for a walk or to my man cave so they can have sometime together and of course I have told her that  is no problem at all but at this time it will be the man cave as it is raining outside at the moment. I think she will go back to bed later which would be good and maybe she will be able to get up and feel a bit refreshed so she can sit with me tonight and we can watch some tv together. 

Helen is speaking to her sister while I am outside in my mancave giving them some time together, just finished a cup of coffee and have the football on the radio, I think I am going to need another sleep but have plenty of time and also Helen gets another couple of hours as well. 

Two photos of Helen with our god daughter and niece Debbie Helen with her permed hair and if I remember correctly this was new year I think but I remember it being a good night. Well the weather has stayed much the same very grey and still raining 🌧 and does look like this will be on for most of the day. 

                                                                            12/12/21

Hello I would like to say that my blogs may change due to what is going on in our lives at the moment but if you have read this weeks blog I am sure you will understand. We slept well I was up at 7am and had a read of my book but managed to goo back to bed and we snuggled up and I managed another hour sleep and truthfully I could have had more. But today Helen is seeing her niece so I thought better get breakfast done. Helen is awake but as of this moment I am not sure what the plan is today after her niece leaves. I will do as much of this as I can as it does help me as well. Another quiet day Helens niece came so i left the two of them to have a talk for a while, i went for a drive and got some messages i did have to pull over as few things got on top of me, i try to keep this to myself so as not to upset Helen as she has enough to deal with we both have as honestly i don't think i have ever been so worried as i am right now.

So will have to phone doctors tomorrow as i am not sure when i will get back to work and need to speak to her about all that is going on. As for tonight well it will be a talk and bit tv. I am sorry it is shorter blog this week and i will see how things go for next week. If you do read this keep everything crossed for H and once again Thank you.

Ged